Oh how I have neglected this poor little blog!

I'm sorry to the 2 or 3 readers that I have LOL! There has been so much going on that I haven't had time to breathe let alone try to put my feelings down. No scrapping news today, just Real Life Drama LOL.

The doctors have taken us on a real rollercoaster ride the past 2 weeks! On the 5th they told us that Ragan would be having a Bone Marrow Transplant, so we got the ball rolling and had already met with the transplant team several times, had her stem cell harvest all scheduled, and even bought a plane ticket for my mother-in-law to come and stay with us during the 2 months we would in the hospital. She had MRI & CT scans on the 8th, and I went in to discuss the results on the 13th assuming that everything would be the same as the last scans a month ago. Much to my surprise, they were not the same. It seems that while undergoing the last 2 chemo treatments a NEW tumor has grown. So, now the transplant is a nix, and we have no idea how we are going to treat her.

I'm trying really hard not to let everything get to me, but the longer this goes on, the harder it gets. I'm tired, and want to be done with all of this. But then I see Ragan so full of life and joy and I feel so crappy for even complaining. She is the one that has had to go through all of this, and she's done it every step of the way without complaining. She is such an amazing little girl! I sometimes think "how did this happen to us? How could God let this happen to my only little girl?" Then I realize that he also made her strong, happy and unbelievably loving so that she could endure all she's had to go through.

So, for all the mom's out there, when your kids are driving you insane, go somewhere quiet and really think about what your life would be without their special little personalities and characteristics that make them who they are!